Ok, the last installment to this songfic series. I'm sad to
end it, but I think this song is so beautiful that I couldn't
put it off. To all those who've asked about the next Heero's Peace
Sequel chapter - some time in the next week, I promise! I wanted
to work on it, but this was keeping me up nights, so I had to
do it. This fic comes directly after "You Must Love Me,"
and I hope you all are happy with the ending, so here it goes!
Oh, yeah, disclaimer: I don't own the characters * pout* or
the song (from Sarah Brightman's Eden CD)
The Last Words You Said
(Takes place right after Endless Waltz)
"I still need you." Her own voice echoed loudly in
the dream. Again they stood in the dark sidestreet as rain drizzled
down on them under the yellow glow of the lamps. Relena saw Heero
turn around, but suddenly a shadow loomed over them, blacking
out the light from the streetlamp.
"Vice-Foreign Minister Darlian?" A deep voice asked.
Relena did not answer; she had no time. The shadow drew a gun,
and shouted "For Miss Mariemaia!" The gunshot resonated
in her mind as Relena woke with a start, trembling, to find herself
in her own bed.
Four months ago. Her recovery had been a long one, as the bullet
had damaged her shoulder along with all the surrounding muscles
and tendons. But she was fortunate, she knew. If Heero hadn't
been there, hadn't pushed her aside, the bullet would have hit
her heart. Instead it had passed through Heero's forearm as he
tried to shield her, and lodged itself painfully deep in her flesh
as they fell to the ground. The gunman was subdued almost immediately,
and claimed to be one of Mariemaia Kushranada's surviving henchmen.
Now Relena was left with the knowledge that Heero had saved her
yet again, but she never had the chance to thank him. He had disappeared
after he allowed Sally to bandage his arm. Relena knew that he
looked in on her before he left and she tried in vain to recall
what had passed between them as she lay barely conscious in the
hospital room.
Sitting up in her bed, still shaking from the dream, she glanced at the bear on her bedstand. Beside it was a dried rose, one that he had left on her pillow the night she nearly fell over the cliff. He always seemed to return when she needed him most. She had shed so many tears, wondering if she would ever see him again. Still, though the days passed so slowly, Relena never gave up hope.
Somewhere in time I know,
Darling you'll come back to me.
Roses will bloom again,
But spring feels like eternity.
Holding the bear, she closed her eyes and tried to remember.
The vision of Heero peering down at her through his long disheveled
bangs sprang forth in her memory. The hospital room had been dark,
but she knew it was him. Relena always felt his presence more
acutely than anything. The painkillers the doctors had prescribed
left her barely coherent, but she had opened her eyes for a few
minutes, long enough to see him there. The sensation of his fingers
lightly touching her cheek - the heat of his breath as he leaned
in to kiss her softly. "I love you," she had wanted
to say. As if somehow sensing that she would try to talk, Heero
silenced her with yet another touch of his lips.
In your kiss it wasn't goodbye.
You are still the reason why...
A tear slid down Relena's cheek as she lost herself in the
last moment they had shared. She could not let go of him. She
had committed the sound of his voice, the softness of his touch
and the way he had looked to memory. Heero would always be near
her.
I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room.
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
He had said something to her, before she had drifted back into
unconsciousness that night. Some strange little phrase...
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now, forever," were the last words you said
to me.
Heero blinked as the light streamed in through the shuttle windows. It was done, all of it. He had gone back to L1 to make sure that all remnants of Dr. J's lab were destroyed, and all evidence and plans for the gundams completely deleted and gone. There would be no need for them any longer.
Today he had seen the secret barracks and hanger demolished
and reduced to a pile of rubble. He had slept there, just one
last time in the cold metal cell of a room that he had called
home, losing himself in the past and the childhood that never
was. Heero awakened from fitful sleep as day broke, and Relena
had been his first thought, the only one that had brought him
comfort.
And when the morning comes,
My hands still reach for you.
To Heero it was not a question of whether or not he loved Relena,
but if he would allow her to love him, even if he had asked her
to. Still battling from within to let himself accept the feelings
that she held for him, and those he held for her, he kept up his
cold emotionless facade.
Some things remain the same,
There is nothing I can do.
Relena sighed as she rose to face another day. Rubbing her ever-throbbing shoulder, she went through the motions of choosing a suit, fixing her hair. She made her way to the morning's first meeting, all the while thinking that she would have been content to stay in her room forever and just think of him.
I can barely get through the day
Ever since you went away.
"Ladies and gentlemen, we will be landing shortly. Please
be sure that your seatbelts are fastened securely. Welcome to
Earth." The shuttle attendant's voice jolted him from a sleepy
haze. 'The Earth,' he thought with a smile. "Relena..."
The last image of her was burned in his mind. The massive scar on his forearm was a testimony to the fact that it had not been a dream. Heero lay awake, unable to sleep or tear himself away from the sight of her lying peacefully in the hospital bed. He wondered what it would be like to wake up beside her every day; that she might smile and kiss him good morning. The sound of her voice...
I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room.
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
Before he left her that night, after he was sure that she would
recover fully, Heero had sat at her bedside just watching her
sleep. There were so many eloquent and poetic things that he would
have liked to say to her, but instead a few clumsy words had tumbled
out of his mouth. Relena, only half awake, had repeated the phrase
back to him.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now, forever," were your last words to me.
Relena took the familiar spot on her balcony overlooking the
ocean. Under the night sky with the deep blue water lolling in
and out, or sometimes raging against the sandy beaches and cliffs.
It was her favorite place to go and think of Heero. Out there
she felt closer to the stars, closer to wherever he might be.
Heaven help us cross this endless sea
With starlight above to guide you to me
Waves crashing on some distant shores
They're calling our names forevermore.
Pulling the doors closed, Relena retreated across the darkened
expanse of the room to the bed. She lay awake for a long while,
and was on the verge of sleep when she heard a familiar voice
say her name. 'Dreaming already,' she thought, smiling sadly.
And I still hear you whispering in the silence of my room.
"Heero," she said aloud to the dream, and to her
surprise, a lone figure began to make its way towards her from
the doorway. Relena held her breath to keep control of herself
as a thousand emotions coursed through her all at once. Finally
she felt herself fall limply back on the pillows as she tried
to fight the urge to cry out.
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon
In an instant he was there by her side, gently pulling up to
sit face to face with him as he seated himself on the edge of
the bed. "You know I could never stay away - never for too
long," he admitted, letting himself reach out to touch one
of the loose strands of golden hair that floated around her face.
"I go where I'm needed," Heero said, his face still
a perfect mask as he toyed the lock he had claimed. "Am I
needed here?"
Relena only nodded, still at a loss for words as Heero moved
ever closer to her.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly
"I'll always need you," Relena whispered softly,
running her hands through his hair as he closed the final distance
between them.
"Then I'll always stay," he replied, easing her back
down onto the pillows and kissing her, to seal the pact. "Always..."
"Love me now, forever," were the last words you
said to me.
THE END
Ok, so that's my (first) Heero & Relena songfic series
done! I know, I know * starts scraping the sap from the walls
* There were lots of votes for a happy ending, I hope this fulfilled
all expectations. Thanks so so so much to all of you who faithfully
read and reviewed. I really appreciate all of your comments and
input, it really means a lot to me to know that you enjoyed these
fics. Oh, I guess there's one more thing I wanted to add to the
story before I end here. I feel it needs to be said, especially
in regards to Heero & Relena: (ahem)
AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER! (at least in this story)
Love and hugs to all - Stella